It's Like I'm Pleading God For An Answer

So recently there's been stuff going on.

Stupid petty issues that adults can't handle - affecting their children in more ways than one.
But then again, being an adult means that your problems are automatically more impt than those of your children.
Or your feelings are above how your children feel.

Also, my granduncle's got last stage cancer.
He isn't that old, just, unhealthy.
His daughter, my auntie, is one year younger than me.
And right now, im just speechless at what blood siblings do - or rather, don't do in times of need.
I don't get it.

Also, i dont understand why children pay the consequences for their parents' actions.
One of the duties of a child i guess.

Plus, there's just so much running through my brain now, it's almost short-circuiting.
I told them i wouldnt let it get to me - and im not letting it get to me.
It's just, im speechless to them, on msn, on sms, everything.
Rendered speechless.

I'm not someone to open and close boxes - my environment disturbs me in every single way possible.
And right now, i'm disturbed.