10 Replies to Yesterday's Random

1. I want ham.

2. Yup, she was surprised.

3. LAN was so tiring - 3 hours straight! YAWWWNNN

4. Im thirsty. And my throat hurts from shouting too much from LAN. Got choir audition tmr lehhhhh ):

5. I shall not upload pics today. Too tired.

6. My mum didnt lose her naggy. WWHHYYYYYYYYY

7. I have no time for ppl who refuse to take advice and change themselves, even though the same thing has been said over and over and over again!

8. Yay i like my hair. Doesn't matter what ppl say~~~

9. My mum's lodging a complaint against the hairsalon that dyed our hair. It's all dry and gross.

10. Bryan Yeo dont want go study huhhhhhhh :D (Haha kidding, he's been studying the whole day :D)

10 Random Things at 2.27am

1. IM SO HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

2. I bet Sihui will be surprised tmr :D

3. YAY LAN TMR NIGHT

4. Im still hungry. Sigh ):

5. I DONT LIKE FB! Just when im abt to finish uploading 200 pictures, they tell me "UPLOAD FAILED" rarrrrrrrr

6. My mummy reattained her naggy today. Hope she loses it tmr.

7. Sigh. More secrets.

8. HAHHAHA I LOOK SO STUPID IN SEC 4!!!

9. Bleach (as in the real chemical, not the manga) has ruined my hair. RARRGH.

10. BRYAN YEO STILL DONT WANT GO SLP HUHHHH


And there you have it, 10 random things.

Evil Bryan

N: Hey babe, what if i grow like obese fat after we get married and stuff?

B: Huh, i'll be :( lor

N: But i thought you said that you'll love me no matter what? ):

B: But then my love for you will be less concentrateed
B: Coz its the same amount of love
B: Over a greater surface area
B: And that's nott goooood


Sigh.

Look there! A star, I want to be just like it.
It has its own glow, its own shine,
It's not like mine - Man-made, blinking, dying.

Estella! You're dancing on the milky way!
How is it like?
To be beautiful, and cold at the same time?
To be warm, yet far away?

Apollo! You were catapulted here!
Made with loving hands, sent here to learn.
And, to be brought back down,
Back into those loving hands.

Estella! Your beauty exceeds all Man could ever do!
Your lights shines brighter than the Sun itself!
Me - I blink. I flicker. I fault.
I do no more than what I'm told to do.

Apollo! Your name brings hope and light!
You are the Sun upon Man - its giant leap.
I stay here, useless and degraded.
Shining for darkness stretching for ever.

Look there! A satellite, I want to be just like it.
It blinks and changes, never stuck.
It's not like me - dying.

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Juxtaposed.
Ironic, moronic.
Changing colours, fading light.
Who wins, when the grass is greener on the other side?

Speechless

NEW SHOES, NEW HAIR.

I'M HAPPY (:

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And now! I shall finally admit!

I'M A GAGA ADDICT (:
I can't stop watching her perform on youtube cause she's like DAMN FRIKIN' AMAZING :D
Today i bought Gaga-eque shoes and im like super proud of them (though Bryan hates them BLEAH!).

I keep getting hooked onto her songs, and i dont know why :/
At first i hated Speechless, but now i cant stop listening to it :D

If I promise to you boy
That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again
So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless
Why you so speechless, so speechless?

*stop here if you dont want to hear me continue crazing over her*

I think the reason why im so crazy over Gaga is probably cause not only is she talented,
She went through shit to get to where she is today (:
Played in clubs and such, wrote songs for top singers (Britney Spears, Pussycat Dolls etc), but never received credit for it.
And somemore her voice is damn good, AND she sings live!!
And her stamina is CRAZY!
Wont pant when she sings & dances & does those mad stage theatrics - she's like, Amazonian.
She's filial somemore cause she tweeted abt her dad and gave him a massage when he was in the hospital (HAHA IM SO GULLIBLE, BUT STILL).

AND! She set a grand piano on fire! (:
WHO DOES THAT?

Yes, I'm Gaga-mad.


LADY GAGA - SPEECHLESS

I can’t believe what you said to me
Last night we were alone
You threw your hands up
Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair
And your cigarette-stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?
And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I'll never long again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me
With your half-wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams
On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me
With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He’s gonna get you and after he’s through
There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated
But I’m a loser in love
So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again
Oh boy you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,
Oh friend you’ve left me speechless
You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

How?
How?
How?

How?
How?
How?

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to
Would you give it all up?
Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and the girls that we’ve been through
Would you give it all up?
Could you give it all up?

If I promise boy to you

That I’ll never talk again
And I’ll never love again
I’ll never write a song
Won’t even sing along
I’ll never love again

So speechless
You left me speechless, so speechless

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You’ve left me speechless
So speechless

Some men may follow me
But you choose “death and company”
Why you so speechless?

OKAY

So A's are over.
HAHAHAHAHHAA OMG IM SO HAPPY I COULD JUST LIKE PRANCE AROUND ORCHARD IN NOTHING ELSE BUT MY NOTES GLUED ON MY BODEEEHHHHH.
Then i'll burn them. Muahaha.

I dyed my hair today too.
It's a tad too light for my liking, but apparently my family says it's quite nice, so yea.

A ghostly picture

I figured what i want for Christmas!
FINALLY - I WANT SOMETHING FOR CHRISTMAS (:

LADY GAGA: THE FAME MONSTER
(Inclusive of The Fame tracks)


I listen to Monster the whole entire dayyyyy， and i want to listen to all her other tracks [Alejandro, Dance in the Dark, Teeth, Telephone] without being pirate-ish.
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS GAGA ):

[Candlelight svc and such is a given lah, of course :D]

I've got my entire week packed with stuff (not exactly lah, -ish)
Job interview, manipedi, shopping, plus my cuzzie's wedding coming up this Sat whoosh!
I can't wait for post A's activities to begin! :D

P.S The word -ish is something like a filler, -ish.
Hahaaaaaaaaa... *Awkward silence*

Chemically Deficient

Hello, this random thought just popped out of my head while i was practising for Chem Paper 1 (:








I HATE CHEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

THANK GOD IT'S GONE FOREVERRRRRR FROM TMR ONWARDS!!!!
YAY FOR THE OFFICIAL END OF A LEVELS WOOOOHOOOOOO :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I'm never gonna take Chem the rest of my life again.
Ever.
Never ever.
Ever.

Stupid chemically-deficient brain.

I should have asked this two weeks ago, but...
CHEM ADDITION PLS TAKE PLACE IN MY BRAIN TMR (Or substitution cause every other subject is over)!

[This post might just come back to haunt me, God forbid :/]

OOohhhhhH.

I'm going for Econs Paper 1 now! WISH ME LUCK :D :D :D :D

And i blogged just to remind myself that i had a nightmare involving Satis House, Miss Havisham, Estella, and zombies.
I'll update later. (:

CIIAAAOOOO

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UPDATE (:

Gosh im sssoooo tired! ):
Went to Plaza Sing with Bryan today to celebrate our (almost) freedom! :D
I was rummaging through my entire pig sty of a room and i couldnt find my makeupppp ommggggg
That only means one thing - it's time to clear my room!

And after half an hour, nothing seems to change.
Although, it feels super mad good to just chuck alllll those tutorials and extra notes into my recycling/karang guni box!!!!!!
The only thing i kept are my math notes, econs notes, and chem notes (cause still got paper 1 D:).

TO ANY J1S READING!
I have econs prelim packages from other JCs which are like highlighted and stuff with abit of handwriting in it!
If you want call me or pm me on msn then i'll pass to you for freeeeee (:

[It's not even considered sporadic dumping cause i'm not even charging!
It costs $12.50 k! :D :D :D]

So anyway, i ate Just Acia with Bryan.
I ate so much till i felt like puking ):
(Which is like good, cause since A Levels started my appetite shrunk considerably = lose weight yay!)

During Econs Telephone was like running through my head nonstop!
STOP CALLIN' STOP CALLIN' I DONT WANNA THINK ANYMORE
I LEFT MY HEAD AND MY HEART ON THE DANCE FLOOR
STOP CALLIN' STOP CALLIN' I DONT WANNA TALK ANYMORE
I LEFT MY HEAD AND MY HEART ON THE DANCE FLOOR
EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH STOP TELEPHONIN' ME
EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH EH

HELLO HELLO BABY YOU CALLED I CANT HEAR A THING
I HAVE GOT NO SERVICE IN THE CLUB YOU SEE, SEE
WHAT WHAT WHAT DID YOU SAY NOW YOU'RE BREAKING UP ON ME
SORRY I CANNOT HEAR YOU IM KINDA BUSY!

Gaga is so catchy (:

And regarding my dream, i figured it wasnt funny anymore, so im not gonna blog abt it :D
YYYYYAAAWWWWNNNNN.
I'm gonna go for Bryan's street soccer match tmr.. Gotta slp earleeehhhh.
NIGHT NIGHT (:

Random Revelation (:

Just because we're not perfect, doesn't mean we can make up excuses to not strive to be perfect.

[If there's anything like this in the Bible, tell me k! I wanna see :D]

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Updated!
Bryan was a total asshole today!

B: Today's a Friday!
N: *dazed* Noooo... It's Thursday!
B: It's Friday, today's the 20th.
N: Where got.. Yesterday was.. Err.. I took econs yesterday!
B: YAH! The paper is today, i went for exam before meeting you.
N: *heart skips a beat* EHHHH DONT BLUFF LEHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
B: Sumpak. (:
N: EH! The paper is in the afternoon and it's only 1pm DONT BLUFF!!!!!!! 0.0

Tell me, where got boyfriends freak their girlfriends out like this?

:D

This is like, my 3rd last paper!!! :D
(I know i sound like im gloating and like kicking dust into those who end on 3rd Dec's face, but im honestly just like, really elated - hope i dont offend anyone ): )

There's Econs Paper 1 and Chem Paper 1 left!
OMGYAYBBBBQQQQQQQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anw, today's Econs Paper was quite..
Err..
...
Yea, that's abt it.
I don't even know whether i did well or not.
I just wrote what i could, so hopefully that's enough.
(In restropect, i thought i'd do well for my econs prelims too, but i ended up with a moderated C, so there.)

And this blog is getting so boring!
All abt EXAMS EXAMS EXAMS only! ):
I'll blog abt something else next week (after Monday), promise (:

I'm looking forward to freedom - but after freedom, what's next?
People are just so weird, once they attain freedom, they find things to chain them back down again (like working, going on a holiday - yes that's considered chaining yourself, especially if you're going backpacking, so troublesome and not to mention scary).
But well, any chain is better than the study chain.
(I know ppl who beg to differ cause they claim the NS chain is much more unbearable :D)

Random note:
Where do all the SA ppl disappear to after papers?
It's like, when Sihui and I come out of the toilet, the whole cohort vanishes.
Seriously.
There's noone in the cafe, library, or even in the toilets.
The whole place is like deserted with only the J1s left.
It's quite freaky, and makes you wonder how fast they actually walk after papers to completely disappear out of school within 15 minutes. (They're not even at the bus stop, jeez!)
So yea, apparently SA kinda doesnt have a life during A Levels ):

Random note 2!
I'm gonna memorise this speech after A Levels and impress/freak people out :D

"Voilà! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran, cast vicariously as both victim and villain by the vicissitudes of Fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition.
The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."

Sigh, so long.

let it go

let it roll right off your shoulder

(:

Yay! It's 6 more days to liberation :D

Lit today was good, the questions came out much much much much easier than expected.

Chem paper 2, well, let's just say there was NO electrochem, no ksp, no ionic frikin eqm,

Yup, Cambridge's pretty weird this year.

They do not have the concept of being moderate.

Now im totally in no mood to study econs.

Haven't touched it in abt 2 weeks and tmr's paper 2! (ESSAY GGGAAWWWDDDD).

But well, after tmr and friday, i'll be (sort of) a free woman! :D

(There's still chem paper 1 on monday, but i kinda screwed chem up already, so hopefully i'll be able to get like, a B? Hopefully ): *cross fingers*)

Econs econs why do you torment me ssssoooooo.

My faithful sony ericsson of 3 years totally died on me today, couldn't last past A levels ):

Oh well, i'll use some cameraless phone first before my mum gets me a new phone after A's :D

Can't wait for A's to be over and done with!

Gonna colour my hair and go clubbing and do nonsense all day loooonnnnggggggg!!!!

Oh, and get a new phone, definitely.

OH! And go Sentosa, plus watch movies!

AND AND AND LIKE, GO OUT LIKE MADWOMAN!

AND GO SHOPPPPIIINNGGGGGGG

Fantasizing much.

Time for econs.

(On a side note, why didn't they put paper 1 first? Once again, emphasizing my point that Cambridge is crazy this year).

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N: SIHUI SIHUI I GOT SLIM DOWN NOT?!!!!!

S: Huh, errr.. I dunno how to see leh.

N: HAVE RIGHT HAVE RIGHT? SEE SEE SEE!!!!! :D

S: Huh orh yah have. (so patronising -.-)

Haha yes as long as i stay to my strict all books diet i shall lose weight exponentially!

LOSE WEIGHT LOSE WEIGHT (:

Update On A Levels

Tmr's Math Paper 2 - FINALLY, MATH CAN BE OUT OF MY LIFE.

Today was Chem Paper 3, and yesterday was GP, the day before was Math Paper 1.
I've always regarded examinations as a trivial thing, cause i mean, it doesn't ultimately determine your future.
Right?
RIGHT?

But i've noticed a pattern throughout my twelve years of education.
It's always -
Step One: try to chiong as much as possible.
Step Two: Take a deep breath and walk into the exam hall and "do your best".
Step Three: Enjoy life.
Step Four: Get back results and - Cry.

ALWAYS.

PSLE, 247 - CRY.
O Levels was fine, i got what i wanted.
But i cried when i got the posting (It wasn't cause of me, it was cause of Bryan, cause he couldn't get into SA)

Now im sleepless, im tired, and im sick of studying.
Because gut feeling tells me, i screwed up GP and i fraked Chem up.
My gut feeling has always proven to be wrong (time and again my instincts fail me), but now, i'm not so sure whether or not im right.
I hope im wrong.

Im so scared that i cant get rid of all my papers.
Those vile excuses of trees are burying me alive and i literally have to BURROW my way through them.


My greatest fear: Having to retake this damn exam.

OMG

CAMBRIDGE IS TULAN THIS YEAR.

Heart-Pounding, Breath-Taking

Alright, so after yesterday's crazy fit was over,
Today i started feeling the pressure.
Like, pressure. (I wanted to put in the physics formula but i have no idea so ya, just a checklist for all you physics students out there :D)

I cannot wait for it to end, but it feels weird to be starting tmr.
ALL the preparation in the world would never be sufficient.
But well, good luck to EVERYONE taking A Levels, whether you're awesome, or just average (HAHAHHAAHA).
Good luck to those who got straight As, and those who didn't get straight As.
God bless (:

May the flame of a thousand suns be in the presence of the moonlight flowers.
(I DUNNO WHAT THIS MEANS BUT I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE LAST SAMURAI -
MUST.. INJECT.. NATURE.. IMAGERY...)

A LEVELS!

KAMIKAZE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
A LEVELS ARE HERE
HERE
HERE
HERE
HERE
HERE

I truly, spiritly, crazily, enthusiastically CANNOT WAIT for it to be SO OVER.
SO SO SO OVER!
Then life can be normal again - NO BOOKS, NOTES, NUUHHTHANG!

(Yes i'm quite high, only because i've been doing math for 6sixSIX hours!)

But i think in hindsight, i'm gonna miss studying.
Cos like, that's all i've been doing since.. June this year, right?
So yea, it'll be hard adjusting back to civilian life (too many army friends can influence you haha!).
But im looking forward to it.

ONWARD!!

UGH

Y'know how sometimes, your elders just like to put you down and make you feel stupid?
Yes, i'm not as smart as my brother or my sister and hence i need to take more tuition and hence i should get better grades right?
Right?
I mean, all that money wasted eh?

Next time, think before you speak.

Infected Outbreak!

No lah, nothing to do with L4D2.

I'm talking abt my face :/
I havent gotten such a bad outbreak since.. Ever.
MAKEUP MAKEUP COME TO MEEEE!

So I haven't been updating often cause i've been like, STUDYING.
A Levels is in exactly a week's time,
AND IT'S ENDING IN 3 WEEKS TIME OMGGGGGGG CANNOT FRIKIN WAIT!
I honestly feel that i could've done much better for A Levels,
But ah well, too late for regrets, and it's not like Cambridge gives a shit either (:
Just go in with what i've got, and give it my best shot :D

And even if it doesn't look okay, it's gonna be okay :D

So i've fallen sick, and gotten a platitude of nightmares over A Levels.
Right now i wanna stomp on it's metaphoric face and throw it into a fiery pit of doomish helllllll.
Yup.

Back to studying! :D
When i hear this song, all i can remember - is you.