Truest.

There are so many people that i appreciate.
Ppl who've stood by me no matter what, and have never ever ever given up on me.
My family and my friends,
Those truest to me, those who mean the most in my life.

Wong - The one who keeps me on my feet, and dishes out the best advice anyone could ask for. She's always the first one i think of calling when i face a problem, whenever my tears threaten to spill. She's the one who never gave up on me after i forsook her (and Char) for two to three years. She never thought of me as a burden, but rather, someone who needed discipleship to become a much more fervent Christian. She's this dear friend/sister of mine whom i'll treasure for the rest of my life (:

Char - She's the one who constantly never gave up on me. My dear godsister, whom i admit i didn't treasure for more than 3 years. Now that she's gone, i miss her and her stupid/lameness, and i really want her back :/ It's hard to find a friend who'll accept you back after you've ignored them for two to three years. That's why she's my treasured friend, someone who i'll help and listen to if she calls me during my commendation duty for help. She never gave up on me, and neither will i.

Sihui - I always always pangseh her for council duty, or when i pon school. Yet, she never complains. Sihui is really one of the best friends anyone could ask for and be blessed with, because sometimes she brings joy into my life by acting dumb, and sometimes she brings me a revelation by sharing her thoughts and opinions with me, and vice versa, which i treasure. Someone who listens to what i have to say, and not only comes to me for only help, and shoot me back down when i feel like i have something constructive to say. I love her for loving me regardless how evil i am to her, and this is what i love most abt her :D

Bryan - There's so much to say abt this guy, so so so much. He's the pillar of my life, the reason why i look forward to checking my phone every day, the only person whom i can trust fully to understand me; the only guy who can decode me cell by cell, and love me for being the clutz/bimbo/blonde that i am. His patience for me is overwhelming, and i love him to the core (:

E222 - This group of ppl make me look forward to Fridays and Saturdays every single week. They make me love my life, make me feel comfortable in the whole group, like i dont have to fake who i really am and think of what to say to keep the conversation going. They have so much life that they pour into mine as well, and make me feel at ease with the world and myself. I love them so much. :D

There have been so many bad things happening this week that i cant even begin to elaborate.
People who've mocked my relationship with God,
People who've called me a hypocritical Christan,
People who've scolded vulgarities at me,
People who've excluded me,
People who make me feel awkward and unwanted,
People who make me feel stupid.

Put simply, the bolded people up there are those who've done the complete opposite of what these "friends" of mine have done.
They've constantly supported me throughout my Christian life,
They try to get to the root of my spiritual problems (not by scolding me, mind you),
They used gentle words to encourage me,
They include me in their "circle of trust",
They make me feel loved and relaxed,
They make me feel proud to be me.

Everyone has a flaw in their personality.
Instead of always looking at yourself to see what you've done,
Once again, take a deeper look into yourself to see whether you've placed expectations on others.
You expect reciprocation from others and when that doesn't happen,
Judgement sets in.
One becomes resentful and unhappy and keep everything to oneself.
Then once something sets it off, you BLOW UP.
Honestly speaking, my opinion is that human nature is selfish, judgemental, and unpredictable.
There're so many things that one expects out of each other, and when that expectation is not met, say GOODBYE to your relationship.

Who i am defines me, but as they say,
"God loves you. But God loves you so much that He doesn't want to leave you unchanged for the better."
Here i am, trying to change for the better.
And yet humans have expectations of you, to change a hundred and eighty overnight.
Is that fair? Is that possible?

Man is born with sin.
Christ died for us so that we can be whole.
We are all not perfect till the day we die - but here's the catch:
As long as we try our very best to avoid sin, the sin of commission and the sin of omission (one that is constantly forgotten),
God will help us change. He knows we can. And He believes.
If He believes in others, shouldn't us as Christians believe in others as well?
"AS HE IS, SO ARE WE." - Right?

Nonetheless, im glad for these people around me.
Although i regret knowing some people, and doing some things in life,
I know God is trying to teach me something.
And i believe this time, He has. :D