Estella

While i was rereading Great Expectations yesterday (in lieu of today's impending doom),
There were a few quotes that kept me staring at that page for fifteen whole minutes, and i was trying to figure out what it meant, in my context.


" 'You should know,' said Estella. 'I am what you have made me. Take all the praise, take all the blame; take all the success, take all the failure; in short, take me.' "

"All I possess is freely yours. All that you have given me, is at your command to have again. Beyond that, I have nothing."

" 'So,' said Estella, 'I must be taken as I have been made. The success in not mine, the failure is not mine, but the two together make me.' "

When i first heard the quotes (all within a succession of three pages) in class, it haunted me as a misguided child blaming her parental figure for having brought her up with the wrong intentions with the wrong (and damn scary) methods, leading her to become an unfeeling, cold and hardened shell of emotionlessness.
Her upbringing had to do with how she responded to Miss Havisham's love advances towards her - she rejected them, just like Miss Havisham had taught her.
But, i began to think last night, and began to ponder - How much of it really was Miss Havisham's fault?
Was Estella equipped with the knowledge to know left from right, dark and light?
Sure, she was isolated from the world, but since her exposure due to her studies overseas, did she not learn anything from there?

It left me thinking with more questions.
And one way or another, it led to me linking it to myself.

I'm glad it's over, and i can finally say that i've finally overcomed that hurdle.
Regardless how much my upbringing has shaped me, the decision lies within myself, and the consequences of what i do will affect me - not the people who brought me up.
I can discern right from wrong, good from bad, not only because of what my parents have taught me, but what God has entrusted me with, His Holy Word, to lead me and guide me, that when i feel like im going offtrack again, He's there to help me with His everlasting advice (:

A Levels does not give me time to introspect.
Okay, MUG MUG MUG. ):

Beautiful :D

For Janelle (Whom Jesus Loves)

Verse 1:
You hang the stars
Your love makes them glow
You care for the lilies,
The sparrows You hold

I open my eyes
Your mercies unfold
When I close my eyes,
There's one thing I know

Chorus:
Jesus loves me,
Calls me His own
Jesus loves me,
He makes me whole
Jesus Loves me,
Heart overflows
It is well, it is well with my soul

Verse 2:
You took my pain
And carried Your Cross
You kept all my tear drops
And shed them like Yours
You felt all my grief on Calvary's hill
Your heart was so broken
Now I can be healed

Chorus:
Jesus loves me,
Calls me His own
Jesus loves me,
He makes me whole
Jesus Loves me,
Heart overflows
It is well, it is well with my soul

(:


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FUNNY JOKE! :D

Rolland: Hey Samuel, let's get the bill.

Samuel: Orh. Bill, bill, bill..

-Waiters didn't hear-

Samuel: Bill, bill, Francis. Zoey.


HAHAHHAHAHHAAH GOSH.
Laughed for 5 minutes straight.




FUNNY JOKE 2! :D

Pastor Kong: -telling story- I was so excited to got the chance to pray, so i SHOUTED...

"IN THE NAME OF SATAN I BIND YOU JESUS!"

-Church erupts into laughter-



It was funneh. Hahaha :D
Awesome awesome service today (:

Aspirations, Ambitions.

It's amazing how fast life passes when you're mugging like a mugger warrior.
Time flies, and you're not having fun at all :/
Every day is like this inch closer and closer to the Big A's (before that, prelims).
I don't enjoy it one bit ):

Recently i've been rethinking what im gonna do after A Levels.
Besides the obvious SHOPPING! and MOVIE-WATCHING!,
I'm gonna find WORK and support myself through SOT :D
SOT=School Of Theology (:
What made me decide and convict my heart, i cant be sure,
But, im really excited for it.
Can't wait for A Levels to end before i embark on an amazing journey :D

Yesterday i watched 17 Again on Bryan's lappie,
And it reignited my LOVES for Zac Efron again!!!! :D :D :D :D


HAHA, CAN YOU SAY CUTE TTM?!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDD

"O! beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-ey'd monster which doth mock
The meat it feeds on."
-Iago

Othello, Act 3 Scene 3

Chem Tuition with Brother

Bro: So, where's the equivalance point?

Me: -silently points-

Bro: *PAK* -whacks my head with pen-

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Bro: Okay, the combined weight of 3 of you is 150kg. If you weigh 100kg...

Me: Yes kor... (can't do anything)

Bro: ... What's your partial pressure?


[In restropect, this is a really flawed example] :D


I was reading 20th Anniversary Harvest Times today.
Thank God that i flipped to a page, and read a quote.

3 taboo words - "Impossible", "too difficult" and "cannot do".

Yes, this shall be my motto for A Levels (:

Epic Tired

Seeing that A Levels is only 91 days away,
It's time this blog went on hiatus.


:(




Alright lah, maybe an occasional picture or two (for my inherent indulgence),
But that's it. :D

See ya'll when my cage door opens! (:


Love, Nal.

P.S Don't be too sad ): Here's an epic-ly cute picture of my siblings and i for your enjoyment :D



:D

Nalina Affinity (N.A)

I'm feeling all hyperactive, cause i've been home the past 2 days (including today, that's 3).
All that energy + nowhere to release = HYPERACTIVE NALINA!!!!
[I kinda miss hanging out with Sihui, and i know she's dying in sch ): Sorry i can't be there to decompose with you girl]

So this blogpost is gonna be abt all kinds of girl crap.
Really.


1) I keep missing buses these few days.
Monday - Missed one to school.
Tuesday - Missed a bus to tuition, and missed a bus on the way to Tampines.
Wednesday - Missed TWO stupid buses.
Thursday (TODAY!) - Still mulching. No going out. Studying. Brain dying. So no bus to miss.

Seriously, 5 buses in 4 days. -.-

2) I keep seeing cute guys around :D
LALALA when i missed the bus to tuition, this DAMN CUTE brunette angmoh in an orange tee (rocker look hehez) crossed the road right in front of me and i SWEAR he was looking at me (cause i was staring, couldn't help it).
Embarrassed, i just took out my phone and twiddled with it till he went away.
HAHA! Then i called Sihui and went berserk :D

Not the mention the doctor i went to see on Wednesday.
He wasn't that cute, just had those piercing greenish-blue eyes (:
HAHA SWOON~
I think i fall for guys' eyes. CRAP.

Okay. I think i made myself puke.
NEXT!

3) I'm abt to die from brain malfunction.
I'm stuDYING so hard, i think my brain is malfunctiozadsiofji2*@#!()!(*jjsosi19*@ EJ92

CHC 20TH ANNIVERSARY :D

OMG I can't believe i woke up so early on a Sunday morning.
What a bad way to end the week.

But what completely turned that around was the atmosphere of the Indoor Stadium the entire morning to afternoon. :D
It was simply, AMAZING.

Praise and worship were amazing,
The performances were amazing,
The crystal block (hehe) was amazing,
The testimonies were amazing,
EVERYTHING, was amazing.

I kinda regretted not being born earlier into Pastor Kong's generation,
Then i'd have been in Anglican High and be one of its founding members :DDDD (HAHA WHAT A STRETCH).
It's so beautiful what God has done in CHC for the past 20 years,
I'm just so grateful to God for placing me in such a wonderful and spirit-filled church,
One that has a vision and is so connected to God.
I really couldn't ask for more (:


I'm so tired now.

I reached home only abt 12am last night and slept abt 2am. :/
Got awakened at 3.15am and chased out of my sister's room ):
Woke up at 6.30am and DIDN'T WANT to get out of bed.

Spent the whole day, from 8am to 3pm at Kallang.
Went to Ion to get (an unsuccessful) lunch. Didn't get any.
Rushed down to tuition at 4.30pm, and ended at 6.30pm. (I really wonder where I got the energy to go buy bubble tea.)
I completely collapsed on the sofa once i reached home.
Right now i want nothing more then to lay my head down on my pillow and




Haha don't worry i havent slept yet.
Close to, close to. :D

As Merrill would say: "you SHOULD go and sleep now" :D
Okay then.
Zzz.