2009

This could most probably be my last post of 2009.

It's been heartbreaking and tormenting, to say the least.
But along the thorns, the roses sprang up to save my days, to give me a hope and a future to look forward to (:

I'm so thankful for so many things.
Family, friends, God, Bryan, songs, the stars, my job, movies, opportunities...
The list is endless, really.
Everything and anything made 2009 possible, and regardless how horrible it was for the majority of the year (A Levels uurrggghhh),
The end of the year was spectacular.



All the people who've been the roses in my 2009 - thank you guys so much (:
(You know who you are - if you're thinking whether or not you are, you most definitely are one :D)

2010 will be much much better.
I know.
SOT, Uni, driving, a new cg, choir ministry - I can't wait.

It's gonna be our 3rd year, my love (:

2009 Reflection :D
Glad to see 2009 go? :
Yes. I can't wait to usher in 2010!

Age turned in 2009? :
18

Did you change your hair in 2009? How?:
Yup! I highlighted and dyed it (:

The best part of 2009? :
Finishing A Levels - the feeling was overwhelming.

The worst part of 2009? :
Enduring the three quarters of the year with A Levels.

Who will you never forget (or at least try not to)? :
E222. You guys are the best! :D

Who did you wish you did not meet in 2009? :
Hahaaaaa. Okay.

Did you have a partner in 2009? :
Yup! Since 2007 :D

Did you fall in love in 2009? :
Yes i did, over and over again.

Did you catch someone in a lie in 2009? :
Haha i caught Bryan bullshitting to me - an EPIC number of times.

Did you call them out? :
Every single time.

Did you get caught in a lie? :
Nope. Not this year.

Funniest moment of 2009? :
The endless random moments while studying. Sihui nagging at her sisters and thanking God it wasn't me, her neverending eating sprees (BROWNIES!), her rubbish statements that i take a turn against her (HAHA SCANDALOUS!) :D Just so many that i treasure.

Most embarrassing moment of 2009? :
Tripping on thin air, steps, pavements etc. Yawning loudly during math lecture - haha that was classic. Making weird noises while studying (:

Did you take any vacations in 2009? Where? :
Not that i rmb.

Any new hobbies of 2009? :
Started playing L4D (was it this year? or last year? :/).

Did you get a new job in 2009? :
Yup! (:

Did you lose a job in 2009? :
My occupation as a student was forfeited.

Did you host a party in 2009? :
Nope. Unless tmr's counted as a party. Hehe.

Where did most of your money go in 2009? :
Buying food while staying in school.

What song will always remind you of 2009? :
Paparazzi! :D Speechless and Bad Romance come second and third (:

What do you wish you’d done more of? :
Prayed and studied more.

What do you wish you’d done less of? :
Overstressing myself.

Biggest achievement in 2009? :
Didn't really achieve much. FAILURE YEAR! ):

Biggest failure in 2009 :
Hopefully it wont be anything to do with studies.

In 2009, did you lie to miss a day of work / school? :
HAHAHAHHAHAH SO MANY TIMES.

Did you move in 2009? :
Nope (:

Did you wish on a shooting star in 2009? :
Not this year, didnt see any.

What was your greatest musical discovery? :
That my voice belongs to soprano? -.-

What was the best book you read? :
My Sister's Keeper.

What was your favourite movie of the year? :
I can't rmb what shows came out this year - Dark Knight?

What did you want in 2009 and got?
An iPhone, a laptop of my own, new shoes, a good job, my own digicam, my makeup set(ish). My roses made out of money (:

What did you want in 2009 but didn’t get?
Shoes, bags, CDs, food, and an endless list of stuff. But well, it doesn't really matter cause i dont rmb what they are! :D

Did you make-out in public in 2009? :
Hahaaaa.

Who/What kept you sane? :
God and Bryan.

Who did you miss? :
Not alot of ppl. Haha, that's why i know from next year onwards i'll miss them like mad.

Who was the best new person you met?
If Sihui is considered new.. (:

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having more L4D2 sessions. Haha kidding (: More time to fellowship would be awesome.

Did you drink too much in 2009? :
Nope. Never did. (:

Your favorite commercial of 2009? :
Was Heineken in 2009?

Something you couldn’t leave home without in 2009? :
My clothes.

How did you spend New Year’s 2009? :
At Pasir Ris Downtown East with Bryan (:

Valentines Day 2009? :
Bryan Yeo! :D

Easter 2009? :
Church!

Halloween 2009? :
I can't rmb. HAHA! Nothing much i think.

Thanksgiving 2009? :
Didn't even realise it was Thanksgiving hehe.

Christmas 2009? :
Church! :D

Your birthday? :
With the girls at Waraku (:

How do you plan to usher in the new year?
Hmm, not too sure. The last day of 2009 will be spent with awesome ppl though, i'm sure.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009 :
Even when you have nothing, nothing is something to be held onto.

THANK YOU GUYS! Have a Happy New 2010! :D

Everything's Going Well

Firstly, i've got a fabu job with fabu pay, working with fabu ppl and meeting fabu customers. (:

Secondly, i got into choir ministry.

Thirdly, my mummy's getting me the iphone tmr.

God's epic Christmas present for me.
I feel so blessed :D

someone once asked me

why am i so money-minded?

everything is always money
money
and more money.

i think,
when you've had it all,
and suddenly lost it all,
that's when you realise its true worth.

i may deem money as important,
but i dont love it.

Christmas 2009

What better place to celebrate Christmas, than in church? (:
Instead of getting wasted and totally missing out on the point of Christmas (LOVE, JOY, PEACE ANYONE?),
I spent a great Christmas with E222.
Just going to church early in the morning, and going off to Bryan's aunt's place to play Wii, Supreme Pig, Monopoly Card Game, Advanced 7 Up, Hee Hoo Huh and Big Fish Small Fish,
It's enough for any Christmas :D

Oh, PRATA FOR DINNER!!!

Looking through the pics of Xmas 2008 really just makes me feel so bittersweet.
So blessed by the fellowship, yet, just for a short 2 years, makes me feel sad.

So it's like moodswings: Happy sad happy sad happy sad emo happy.

Nonetheless, we've gone through our last svc together, our last cg together (i think), and soon we'll go through our last overnight pm together.
It was good while it lasted.

I'll miss you guys. :(

L-O-V-E

3rd year coming in 12 days time (:

So far working's been fine, just crazy tired every single day, cause i never go straight home from work.
I'll always be shopping, playing LAN, or eating dinner till late after work, which explains why even though i work so little im still exhausted ):

Today was Candlelight svc! :D
It's so weird how fast time flies, i still rmb Asia Conference last year (epic leg break) and Xmas alllll wrapped in one fine package of 2 months.
Now in 2009, A Levels are over, and im working already.
Gonna sit for my Basic Theory (soon) :D YAY DRIVE DRIVE VROOOM!!

So far, 2009 wasnt bad. It just went past too fast.

Im not gonna work alot alot for the end of the year, probably only on Monday next next week (:
Gotta spend the end of the year with all my loved ones - Bryan, family, E222, classmates, CCA mates and random ppl from everywhere.

PLACES TO GO!
SENTOSA
MARINA BARRAGE
BOTANIC GARDENS
SCIENCE CENTRE (i really really wanna ggoooooo)
ZOO (?)
Clubbb (???)

One thing's for sure, im going Marina Square tmr (:

Bringin' Home the Bacon

I'm so tired from working ):

TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED!

Shall bathe and slp. Zzz.

Yay Xmas is finally here! (:

E222

Being in this cellgroup for 2 years has given me such great friends and leaders.
It really seems like only yesterday that we were playing Wii at Grace's place (i was all shy and stuff HAHA all fake one) :D
And at Sentosa on the eve of 2009, spending the afternoon getting sunburnt and crispy.
Countless of LAN fellowshipping and super early soccer/basketball sessions (which i never attended).
Late night dinners after cg and svc, htht on msn and on the phone.
Always lighting me up, even on my worse days - making me look forward to every Friday and Saturday.

THANK YOU
to this bunch of ppl who have made a huge difference in my life.


Even though i'm being multiplied out, away from the original cg and away from my connect group,
I don't ever want to lose friends like you all.
Life may be busy and as we grow older, starting to work and study in uni, we will not have the time to meet each other, especially when we start ministry.
But yet, let us never stop remembering the good times we had, and we have to make an extra effort to continue forging the good times ahead (:

To my Connect Group - Wong, Kaiqi and Sihui,
Thank you guys for always being there for me, always helping me fight the good fight of faith.
I'm really honored to have been in this connect group, especially with Wong Lao Da at the helm.
Now i'm being married out, i'll bring back many many many more ppl back, and i'll never forget that you guys were the ones who built my faith so strongly and never failed to be with me when i needed help.

To Wongsie, thank you.
Thank you for all the late night calls and prayers,
For the sharing of the Word, and your sacrifices,
Coming to my place with Char in the middle of the night when i was down,
For always being retarded and mad when darkness falls,
Making retro jokes and always huachiing abt guys who are *ahem*
I'll miss you ):

Now that im back home, words cant express the magnitude of loss i feel.
Although multiplication is good, something that is necessary for one's growth and the growth of the church,
It's just quite hard to say goodbye to something that you've been holding dear.

Goodbyes are hard.

to you

Sometimes, you don't have to use sarcasm to prove your point.

I hate it when you use that tone against me. You're an adult, you don't need that.

Attaching a newspaper article about "Internet Addiction" onto my laptop is not only juvenile, but extremely insulting.

When asked what that meant - "It's just informative. I don't mean anything."

When you always ALWAYS tell me in a hostile voice to go and sleep (at 3am), you're reading the newspaper with the tv on, telling me that sleeping late is bad for my health.
And then carry on telling me that i deserve to be sick, coughing and having pimples on my face.

You tell me not to smoke with a cigarette in your hand.

Im so scared when you're watching religious shows on Discovery Channel, cause you'll take a point from the show and question me with it - as if i was the one who actually produced that programme.
I fear when you're home, because you WANT to prove my belief wrong, and i dont want to argue anymore.
When i defend my belief, you say im being rude, disrespectful, brainwashed by the church.
You laugh, mock, and scoff at me when i say anything.
When i dont say anything, you presume that you're right, and that i admit that my belief is wrong when i keep quiet.

Buddhism, Islam and Christianity are the same.
The Bible is written by man.
Adam and Eve's children committed incest. That's wrong.

I don't want to talk abt theology, because God is so unconventional. So to you, it's rubbish.
You tell me you're a Christian, but you havent attended church in 30 years.
You believe that the Islam God is the same God Christians worship, and you don't believe in the bible.

I don't understand that.

At one point in time, i hated you.
I admitted it to ppl, and got scolded really really badly.
I reflected, and from then on, i told myself to honour God's commandment, no matter how hard it is.

I try to be respectful to you, regardless how much you nag at me and don't practise what you preach.
It's hard, and i really don't want to argue anymore.

I was so insulted just now, spewed vulgarities while ranting to mummy.
She told me to relax, and not be provoked so easily (HAHA SHE'S SO MUCH MORE CALM THAN ME AND ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO CHILL, PRAISE GOD :D).
I was so pissed off, so so so pissed off.

Now, i don't really know whether to be indifferent or what.
I want to respect you as my daddy, but sometimes, it seems impossible.

Unrecognisable

With my brown hair, ppl say i look different.
Which is good.

Cause now i dont have to say hi to ppl i dont want to.

And it's cool how they walk past you, look you in the eye, and carry on with life as if you've never been there.

This beat be bumpin' bumpin'

Yesterday was my first time in a club, Supperclub to be exact.

First off, beds are weird. Especially when they're all connected - it's like, random ppl can just roll past you.
Secondly, the dance floor was. so. small. Puny, even.
The whole first floor was just jammed with dancers (some crazy ppl - really wasted, those few) and some ppl doing.. err, stuff.

It's all fun and games till someone gets hurt. But well, in a club, you CAN and you WANT to lose your inhibitions, which some ppl did.

Even though i sound like im on a moral rant and everything, i really totally crazily enjoyed myself.
Cause i didnt get really high/drunk/tipsy, and i was clear-headed the whole time, so i knew what was going on and didnt embarrass myself (except when my heel got stuck and tripped on the way out of the club -.-).
People were dirty-dancing, making out, getting high, puking and rolling down stairs.
Yea, thank God i wasnt one of them.

And Sihui told me two guys were making out on the dance floor. Yup.

At the same time, it was quite entertaining watching your schoolmates get wasted.
Although i was thinking like "how are they gonna get a cab back man", it was quite funny watching ppl get tipsy and start loosening their outfits and like.. start gyrating at places NOT on the dancefloor (it was super duper mad packed with tons and tons of ppl).

Random ppl dirty-dancing with each other. Ugh.

And advice to girls going to Supperclub, please dont go up the stairs if you're wearing dresses/short skirts.
The stairs are glass, and the top floor parapet is just made up of many wires together.
So if you decide to go upstairs, it's like free show for the guys below.

I sound like my mum. GGGAAWWDD.

Still, i wanna go clubbing next weeeek :D :D :D :D
My only concern is that it's expensive, and im afraid i may not have the awareness to protect myself from ppl who arent SA guys (who are honestly quite decent - as in, they dont attempt to grope/molest girls).

Oh well, bring Bryan with me, personal bodyguard :D
And dont go Supperclub, small dancefloor ):

My entire day went like this:
(It's totally hedonistic :D)

Bryan and I met for NYDC - wah, their choc cheese cake is HEAVEENNN~
Then we went to play arcade, and LAN at Bugis (played Dark Carnival and saw CLOWNS YAY).
We walked to Macs at Odeon Towers there, and slacked and ate for an hour before going into the club (:

I was in the club from 11pm till 3am and drank a few complimentary drinks.
Whiskey and vodka housepours - whiskey was unexpectedly nice :D
Danced awhile, chilled, drank, then danced again, chilled, drank, repeat.
After a while it got quite monotonous, cause i wanted to go dance but the dancefloor was packed like sardines. Really.
So, Bryan and I walked to Arab St to shisha, but it was closed (DUH, 4am, which place would be open right? Oh right, clubs).
Then we took a cab back home.

Slept from 6am to 3pm, SHIOKKKKKK :D
Although when i woke up, my ENTIRE body was aching.
Alcohol can really suppress bodily pain uh (:
(I was in my heels for SO LONG, my feet would have hurt by 12am, but they didnt! :D)

WHO WANTS TO GO CLUBBING NEXT WEEK?!?!!
Thurs/Fri im freeeeeeeee :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Call me call me yay :D

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*BACK TO REALITY!*
I have work tmr, so i should slp early. Ugh.
Goodnight everyone! :D

BOOMZ

Crazy bunch of ppl who're crashing SA prom tmr :D

Even after A Levels, my pimples are non-tirelessly bombarding my face.
(They won't leave me alone! BLAH)
But right now, i just wish for my cough to BEGONE! cause i really need to get well for my activities next week (:
Prayer meetings every morning, postprom on mon night to tues morning, work on wed and fri (i'm doing opening! ):) and hopefully thurs left empty to spend with bryan :D

Now i just pray for Bryan to get a job himself, cause he's experiencing the same thing i've been getting the past few years - doors slammed shut in the face.
But when one door is closed, another is opened, RIGHT RIGHT!? :D

Yup. So life's not bad now.
Good job, good pay.
Tiring, but at least it ain't a 9 to 5, and although i have a test next next week, at least my brain wont rot THAT much :D
And my alcohol knowledge go BOOMZ through the roof yay (:
Plus, i get to spend time with bryan whenever im not down for work, which is awesome. :D

I'm happy. (:

BIG HAPPPYY PICTURE!!!

):

I have like, a test next next week during work.

According to my sister, I'll be tested:
- country of origin and alcohol percentage of ALES, SPIRITS, WINES, HOUSEPOURS and BEERS.
- service milestones (4 phases and 13 points) + random shit
- ingredients and sauces of food served

An example of the ingredients of ONE dish:
TRADITIONAL ROAST BEEF
2 thick slices of roast ribeye served with mash potatoes, daily veg ( 2 carrots, shittake and button mushrooms and 1 broccoli), brown gravy, yorkshire pudding roast potatoes and horse radish!

Another one!
BANGERS AND MASH
2 sausages (one herb BIG and one harris pork SMALL), mash potatoes, onion gravy and cherry tomato /2!

OMG. Yah.
Then, Heineken is from Holland, 5% alcohol, lager beer.
Old Speckled Hen is from England, 5.2% alcohol, ale.
Kilkenny is from Ireland, 4.3% alcohol, ale.
AND MORE!

Gosh, machiam A Level again.
UGHHHH.

Much Better

Work today was much better, I finally got the hang of it! :D (ish, haha)
Although, i still have alot to memorise abt product knowledge - BEERS WINES SPIRITS ALES HH NH, and FOOODDDD omggggg.

But yea, i felt much better today.

I'm still feeling sick :/
My nose started feeling runny, my throat hurt and my feet ache. Boo.

Today baby ended his A Levels! (Like finally :D)
I just hope i can help him get a job, a really really good job that he deserves (:

And tmr's the end of a long long long working week.
FINALLYYYYY. It's been quite torturous and tiring. Boooo.

I know this post is random, but im too tired to form coherant paragraphs.

I feel like eating chendol and ham ):

And work isn't JUST taking "simple orders" k!
It's much more, much much more.

Like i said, the $7.50 isn't easy to earn.

TIREDDDDDDDD

OMG

Working these past two days, i can only say one thing:



This $7.50/hr isn't easy to earn.

Just tmr and Friday, and i'm gonna take a long long holiday off till next Wed :D
(Cause Monday and Tuesday must do Appreciation Gifts and got Post Prom woots!)
Then see whether i wanna work on Thursday not (got chua outing yay :D)!

So if it all works out, i'm gonna work only on Wed and Fri :D
(Earn lesser, but less tired - not like now, i'm like gonna die already cause i got cough and flu).

I've gotta go slp, cause i got work at 10.30am again tmr, and 11.30am on Friday.
Yay for short working hours!
Boo for tired feet and leaky nose and painful throat ):

ONE KICKASS HUGE PICTURE OF MY NEW HAIR :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I don't care if it's act cute or what, i look nice here (HAHA ANGSTY)!

And to those who say i look like lian: I dont care bleahhhhhhh
:D