Hope it's not too small

There was a reason why for 14 days I didn't click play on this video when I saw it on Sam's blog.
Last weekend was a "Terror Weekend", and I realised that only after that weekend would this video have an effect on me.

5 Loaves & 2 Fishes



Every tear I cry is a diamond in His hands.

Faced with this, I can now choose to go backward or forward.
I can choose to retreat, or advance.
Give up, or stay strong.

If I give this up, all I have left on my mind is work, Bryan, and nothing else but an enjoyable holiday till uni starts with all the money I earn from work.
No SOT, no BF, no tithing, no ministry, no headache.
I really want to, my mind and every thread of logic is telling me to stop and reconsider the commitment I have to this "institution".

But because I love You, I won't.
Screw becoming a better person, screw expanding my capacity and everything else.

It's just for that fact: I love You, and I won't give up serving You, because You loved me first, and You won't stop loving me, no matter how annoying or imperfect I am.
Help me, help me to reciprocate the same love, no matter how hard it is.

To You

I know my life has been busy and everything, to such an extent that I'm blogging from my phone and I'm eternally away from msn.

Yet, I want you to know, that I'm always here.

When you need to rant, complain, cry, rejoice - or simply talk,
I'm here (:

Regardless how hectic life is, I'll always have time for my friends, because you mean more to me than my own life.
Really.

Don't blog in ambiguity, sometimes, just let it all out literarily :D It makes you think less and solves your problem alot faster than a muse.

I haven't changed my handphone number. So, just give me a call. When and if you need to talk.

God bless.

Saying the Wrong Words

Unlike Linkai, I'm not yet able to produce fruits of SOT (:
But I have one verse to share - Out of tiredness the mouth speaks rubbish.

EG 1.
Situation: Mummy talking abt iPhone getting water damaged.
Mum: They say my iPhone indicator is pink!
Me: Yah lah, you know, when your phone gets water baptized... *pause*

EG 2.
Situation: Manager asking for locker number.
Mngr: What is your locker number?
Me: Oh, err, table two.

EG 3.
Situation: Colleague asking me whether im taking the drinks outSIDE.
A: Eh Nal you going out later?
Me: Of course not lah! I'm so tired, going home to sleep.
A: ?????? Er i'm asking whether you're going outside later, can bring the drinks out with you.

In this state of mind, it's not wise to think of my uni and course application :/

Army

Hi (: I'm using Bryan's laptop to blog now, while he bathes and books in again later.
Honestly, 24 hours is just not enough.
Not to mention that we argued for a while, i mean, with this amount of time, what type of arguments can be resolved?
Le sigh. Thank God we're alright.
Worst still, we didnt talk/sms each other for the past week, all cause of Field Camp.
BLEAHHHH. Reinforcing my belief that army still sucks.

SOT's officially starting tmr.
8AM AT JURONG WEST. OMG.
I really cannot believe the horrifying truth of waking up at 6AM.
6 AM.

Just a quick update, while next week passes and i'll be like where did all my time go again.
SOT every day, Pst Kong's meeting on Mon, ministry on Tues, work on Wed (St Pat's yay) and Thurs and CG on Fri. Bryan books out on Sat, and i'll serve choir, then Sun - MY SABBATH.
Phew. See ya'll soon (:

All Abt 'A's And A&B

Hello!
So first up, A Levels.
I did well, exceptionally well, unbelievably well.

I've never gotten an A throughout my 2 years in SAJC, and suddenly the results just exploded, so yea, it's crazy.
If you know me, and you know how i study, this is really a miracle. God's miracle. Not something that can be human-ly achieved by my own strength or power.
ALL GLORY TO GOD! (:

And to those who didnt do well, trust in God and just let His plans unfold. Ask Him where He's leading you, because your entire life isn't based on this cert alone. Let Him guide your way, because this setback is nothing more than a stop in a long road called life. Cheer up, and don't be sad anymore, cause you gotta always count your blessings, this cert isn't the reason why you breathe and live every day. (:

Second up!
CHC's acquisition (co-ownership) of Suntec City Convention Centre.
I'm so excited/happy/ecstatic abt it! :DDDDDD
It's just opposite DN, which is awesome, and it's smack in the city centre booyahhh!
And although there's gonna be loads of backlash, which is already appearing on the internet, it doesnt faze me a teeny bit, because i know what we're doing is all part of building God's kingdom, and Suntec Convention Centre is just what God needs in the marketplace.

So, with all these miracles abound, i'm just too happy.

The problem now is just choosing a course i want to go to..
And, which school?
Sigh. Decisions, decisions - all to be made in a course of two weeks.
God, just give me a direction.

SOT is starting soon, together with Pastor Kong's meeting with the youth in church.
I'm so thrilled, cause i know it's gonna be good.

Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy.
That's gonna be my motto for the next few months.
Pray for me (: