to you

Sometimes, you don't have to use sarcasm to prove your point.

I hate it when you use that tone against me. You're an adult, you don't need that.

Attaching a newspaper article about "Internet Addiction" onto my laptop is not only juvenile, but extremely insulting.

When asked what that meant - "It's just informative. I don't mean anything."

When you always ALWAYS tell me in a hostile voice to go and sleep (at 3am), you're reading the newspaper with the tv on, telling me that sleeping late is bad for my health.
And then carry on telling me that i deserve to be sick, coughing and having pimples on my face.

You tell me not to smoke with a cigarette in your hand.

Im so scared when you're watching religious shows on Discovery Channel, cause you'll take a point from the show and question me with it - as if i was the one who actually produced that programme.
I fear when you're home, because you WANT to prove my belief wrong, and i dont want to argue anymore.
When i defend my belief, you say im being rude, disrespectful, brainwashed by the church.
You laugh, mock, and scoff at me when i say anything.
When i dont say anything, you presume that you're right, and that i admit that my belief is wrong when i keep quiet.

Buddhism, Islam and Christianity are the same.
The Bible is written by man.
Adam and Eve's children committed incest. That's wrong.

I don't want to talk abt theology, because God is so unconventional. So to you, it's rubbish.
You tell me you're a Christian, but you havent attended church in 30 years.
You believe that the Islam God is the same God Christians worship, and you don't believe in the bible.

I don't understand that.

At one point in time, i hated you.
I admitted it to ppl, and got scolded really really badly.
I reflected, and from then on, i told myself to honour God's commandment, no matter how hard it is.

I try to be respectful to you, regardless how much you nag at me and don't practise what you preach.
It's hard, and i really don't want to argue anymore.

I was so insulted just now, spewed vulgarities while ranting to mummy.
She told me to relax, and not be provoked so easily (HAHA SHE'S SO MUCH MORE CALM THAN ME AND ACTUALLY ASKED ME TO CHILL, PRAISE GOD :D).
I was so pissed off, so so so pissed off.

Now, i don't really know whether to be indifferent or what.
I want to respect you as my daddy, but sometimes, it seems impossible.