Shut up

I'm starting to get tired of systems.

There're so many things im tired of, but if i actually say what they are, i'll get myself into trouble.

Sometimes i wish i could just say what i feel and not get into trouble, but if i speak -
Let's just say there's a system to correct that.

I don't like ppl not understanding, or worse still, PRETEND to understand and offer words of absolute worthlessness.
Or even worser still, say IF I COULD HAVE DONE IT, YOU CAN DO IT TOO without understanding the full circumstance.

Now i feel myself turning into someone loathesome, someone whom i didnt want to be.
It's as if my entire personality took a one eighty.
I crave for things that have never fully entered my system - and i never want them to.
But i crave.

I feel this process happening, this process that has happened to me before.
But now, im full aware of its presence.
And, im not doing anything to stop it. Im letting it take its course.

There's probably only one person who knows this straight out the horse's mouth.
And that's because if i tell someone else, i'll spark off a chain of events which might lead to dire consequences.
So for now, it's just best i keep my mouth shut and tongue tied.


There's no escaping His Will.