Faced with this, I can now choose to go backward or forward.
I can choose to retreat, or advance.
Give up, or stay strong.

If I give this up, all I have left on my mind is work, Bryan, and nothing else but an enjoyable holiday till uni starts with all the money I earn from work.
No SOT, no BF, no tithing, no ministry, no headache.
I really want to, my mind and every thread of logic is telling me to stop and reconsider the commitment I have to this "institution".

But because I love You, I won't.
Screw becoming a better person, screw expanding my capacity and everything else.

It's just for that fact: I love You, and I won't give up serving You, because You loved me first, and You won't stop loving me, no matter how annoying or imperfect I am.
Help me, help me to reciprocate the same love, no matter how hard it is.