Joy

One week has flew past.

Bryan remains in camp.
The world is still round.
I still haven't done my readings or prepared for mock cg next week (:

All that's changed is my capacity.
I've grown this week :D

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This week has been nuts (:
It's really really no joke to wake up at 5 in the morning, walk to the mrt station which is 20 min away (cause there's no first bus to send you there), catch the first train, then reach school at 6.50am.
Have prayer meeting till 8am, a quick break to the washroom/sleep, serve choir at 8.10.
Schoooooooool till 1pm, then lunch, then DN till 11pm.
Reach home at 12am, sleep at 1am, wake up at 5am,
Repeat cycle.

Yet, this is the week that I got the most insight from God about myself, about ppl, about ministry.
Not falling sick is a whole miracle of its own.
The only emotional torture and trauma for me this week was Bryan being away, and I not being able to talk to him.
But somehow, some way, I pulled through.
His grace and mercy was upon me all this while, and I can be thankful that in honoring Him, He has honoured me as well.

I'm not really looking forward to mock cg next week,
Cause I haven't prepared for it at all.
Nonetheless, I'm gonna give my very best (:

The joy of the Lord is my strength.

It's been baffling for me this week as well.
I keep on questioning my actions, my purpose,
Am I pushing myself too hard? What am I doing all this for? Why can't I just drop everything and life will be simpler, so so so much simpler?
When especially (1) ppl don't appreciate, and (2) ppl don't see the sacrifice and effort you've put in.

Besides the popular point that leaders always say - Even if ppl don't see, God sees,
There's another reason.

Because, He first loved us, and still loves us, and will never stop loving us.
That we love, and we live, to serve His purpose.
And while doing that, He builds our lives up, continually adding and extending His Love (:

The wall needs the brick, and the brick finds its function in the wall. :D