Hmm

This is really eating me inside out.

I know that it's normal to feel like this once in a while,
But this time, it feels overwhelming.

Every time this sorta thing happens i fall sick, so i guess it's just a manifestation of the spirit? (Theological term here, sorry)

I hate being stuck in a place where you cant go back or move forward.
I hate being stagnant, staying put, unable to advance.

I know the cause, i know the effect,
Yet, I refuse to surrender this to God.
My Achilles' heel - the only thing he can attack, i leave it open, all because of my stubbornness, all because i dont want to let go.

Because when i let go, i lose a part of my life.
I know there is more to gain, but i dont want to lose THAT. I refuse to.

It's either one way or the other.
And that's eating me alive.