Choice

I'm so scared now.

I'm living a life of fear, just waiting to be found out. I'm scared all the effort I've put in have gone to waste, that people start to believe what I did wasn't because of others, but for myself.

It never started out that way. And I never planned for it to end that way either. I never wanted it all to be about me and my problems.

I wanted to help others, to shine a light and guide them out of their darkness. But what I did was plunge my whole self into it.

Do I regret? Right now, yes. But in the near future, maybe not.

I honestly wish I could speak to you now, because I feel that what we're going through is the same confusion. I want to know how you feel, think and what you're doing to help yourself. Nothing, something, or exactly what I'm doing - hiding?

I need a mental break.