I really like being with you, hanging out and just talking about life. That night we spent 4 hours just chatting away (despite the awkward circumstances) made me feel so loved (seriously, loved), pampered, and just practically took away all the hurt and disgust I was feeling about myself.
When you looked me straight in the eyes and told me to stop thinking about myself that way - you pretty much captured my heart. (HAHA FUCK THIS IS SO CORNY)
When I opened my heart and my hurt to you, you didn't judge me, you just listened and nodded your head, like you understood where that pain was coming from, the reason for my tears and fears, the insecurity I had and the plunge in self-esteem I took when I free-falled from my life.
Sharing with me about your own life made me realise that I wasn't the only one who's been through shit that life has thrown to us, that everyone has their own problems, and it's no use dwelling on them. Cause at the end of it all, you gotta get your focus back and pay attention to the things that need attention the most - studies, friends, fun. In that order.
You may be much older than me, but you don't look down on my age. You think I've gone through much more than my peers, and know more abt the world than most of them. I honestly wouldn't say that, cause everyone does stupid things all the time - just for the heck of it. I land myself in trouble, THEN I learn. I don't do things theoretically - I make mistakes practically. And sometimes the most obvious things need to be tested out to check whether they really are as bad as they sound. P.S they're not always bad (: (I could give some examples, but nah, some things are meant for me to know and for others to find out hahahhaha)
Like you said, this may be unusual, and to both of us, this is kinda creepy-weird in a pedophiliac way, (PEDOBEAR HAHAHAHHAA) but if it works, it'll work. We'll just see how it all turns out in due time.
Honestly, I'm either a 25 year old trapped in a 20 year old's body, or you're a 21 year old trapped in a 28 year old's body. I'd like to think of it as your fault :D
I do miss you though.
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