Alternate Reality

I thought I would finally be put first on someone's list.

It wouldn't have been a surprise, given the history we have. All the people I've met, to all of them, to every single one, I am nothing but second place.

Someone to meet when the sun has already set, when most of the population are in their slumbers. Someone to have fun with, to drink with, to drunk talk with. A late night girl, not to be seen in the daylight.

I was getting tired of being just that.

You came along, and I thought it was gonna be different. I know you well, so well. Then I saw your phone again, and thank god I walled my heart up, so I didn't feel hurt right there and then. One of the main reasons why I will never fall in love in the next few years or so.

To all of them, I am an alternate reality. I will never be real, I will never be deep, I will never be loyal, I will never be a strong girl.

I am nothing like that.