Initially, I thought what I did would hurt only one person.
Then, I thought that instead of hurting that person, I hurt the other two instead.
Now I realise that all 3 are fucked.
Glenn's right. I have to make a choice. Now, I'm just making people (including myself) miserable with my double-mindedness and inability to make choices because I'm scared.
I'm scared I make the wrong choice, I'm scared of leaving things behind and moving forward, I'm scared of change.
I'm not happy, but in that process of finding happiness - I screw other people up as well. Which makes me not only a retard and an idiot, but a mofo too.
Basically, I just epitomised stupidity and numbness.
I've gotta think things through clearly, and Glenn, thanks for telling me things that really helped.
Sometimes the pros and cons can be weighed out, but to what extent of judgment can you weigh them out? And how do you know which pro outweighs which con? What if there are 10 cons and 1 pro? Does that necessarily mean you should follow through?
Help me. I don't want to lose you.
Strip it all away
I'll be alright
Take what you want
Steal my pride
Build me up
Or cut me down to size
Shut me out
But I’ll just scream
I'm only one voice in a million
But you ain't taking that from me
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