True, it shows how much of a douche I am, and how I can't make my mind up decisively. But unlike you, I have much to think about. Like a 4 year relationship on the rocks, and a seemingly blossoming romance on the side. Dealing with the pros and cons ain't all that simple. True, I was afraid of stepping out of my comfort zone, and handling problems that have been brushed under the carpet because I was just too used to being treated like that. You took one year to get over a one and a half year relationship, what makes you think a four year relationship is just as easy to get over? Plus, your wavering concern plunged me in doubt. One moment you seemed to be really concerned, the next you were telling me to settle my own shit and you were just too busy to give a damn about my life. Because SC2 is way more important than human feelings and relations.
But no, you wouldn't hear shit from me. To you, it was all just excuses and emotional vulnerability.
Well, I finally made up my mind. The least you could have done was NOT to lead me on. To enamour me with false promises like "always being there for me" and statements like "Yes, I do like you". Well, you forgot the second half - "Yes I do like you, as much as I like all the other girls out there, cause I like girls easily."
You still do owe me some things - money and an IOU. Money, I'm gonna ask you when I see you again. The IOU - I don't need or want it anymore. You can fucking have it back.
I put you above all my studies, thinking of you every damn night and wondering what would have happened if I made up my mind earlier. You were right - I wouldn't be happy with you, because now I know how you think, and how your character is like.
Thank you for the memories, but fuck you for all your goddamn lies.
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