Through It All

I sat down with Liting at the bus stop and told her everything.

While she was talking, towards the end, my heart started to palpitate. Like something alive came in me again. I could feel something growing inside me. I could feel my eyes starting to water.

As I confessed everything to her, she never once told me to stop. She didn't tell me that I was wrong. She didn't tell me that as a Christian, I am obligated to blah blah do this do that etc. Even though she knows that what I'm doing is wrong. And as she listened intently to what I was saying, I could feel no judgment from her, I could feel no disgust from her. All I could feel was God speaking through her while she spoke to me.

I almost cried just while sitting there.

As I got home, all that I felt at the bus stop vanished away. I could feel my body breaking down once again. I felt tired, in alot of pain, and I just felt my sickness flooding through my body. Here I am, with a sore throat, an ulcered gum and runny nose, hammering away at my laptop.

Never once in my life have I thought that I would degrade to such a level.