Y'know that I could use somebody

It's so difficult without you here.

I'm so tired and frustrated at every aspect of my life now. Be it SOT or work or ministry - whatever. I'm just so so so tired of it all. But the hardest thing happens when I can't see you, I can't talk to you, I can't hug you, and you can't reassure me that everything's alright, because everything's not. You're tired as well, army regime and all, and I can't be the one to comfort you or understand how you feel. I haven't heard your voice for the past three days, and it's been so tiring at work, shitty customers night in night out. I'm so tired just thinking of the assignments I have yet to complete for SOT, the time I have to wake up every day and the time I get to sleep every night. Worse of all, you're not here to tell me to hold on, be strong, march on. Because I'm just drained and frustrated by everything.

I just want to run. I want to run.